I’ve neglected my blog now more than ever and it’s not because I don’t like to blog. You see I’ve been busy. Doing what you ask? It seems like my creative desire for photography and invitation design has taken over my life. I love doing both and I’m not complaining. I must admit I’m a bit overwhelmed. My mind is oozing creativity and having to be stuck on my desk for 40 hours a week doesn’t help. Like most artist I too have a corporate day job. This day job is my main source of income. Some day’s I sit and think about quitting. Just dive in head first and peruse what I really love doing.
At work I think about what I could be doing once I get home, like snapping pictures or coming up with new invitation designs to post on my site. “Oh oh I bet this color would look great on this invite and that bright envelope will make it pop. I bet if I wait for the mid day the sun will just be perfect. I can finally take that vintage chair I bought and use it as a prop for a picture” those are some of the things I think of at work. I get supper excited and by the time I’m done putting my 8 hours in and go home I’m too tired to do anything. Work lady turns into mommy till about 11pm. I feed the boys, do homework, give them a bath, read them a book and put them in bed. Finally, some Suzy time! Woop woop what should I do first? Um, start designing the invite? Yes that’s it. I get to my computer but freeze. That brilliant idea I had earlier today at work um not working for me. I’m so exhausted I can’t seem to put myself together. I will just work on it tomorrow.
And so these are my days. I can’t complain because some day’s in between feeding the kids and 2am I do my best work. Other days I do nothing at all and that’s ok. When it comes to doing what I love I’m willing to loose some sleep. It’s hard but until I get my lucky break and boy do I wish it comes soon, I’ll be a walking zombie.